I start year 12 next year.

Get. Fucked.

I HAVE CONFORMED

and have moved to Tumblr.

http://sans-avenir.tumblr.com

feel free to stalk me at will.

I doubt I'll use this blog much, if at all, anymore..

<3

OH MY GOD

YOU'RE 21 YEARS OLD AND YOU POST MORE DEPRESSING "I broke the hart of da onli girl hoo truly lovd me i'm so srry bby :'(" STATUSES THAN A 13 YEAR OLD GIRL ON HER PERIOD AFTER HER FIRST BREAK UP

SHUT

THE

FUCK

UP.

I AM SO DELETING YOU OH MY WORD your annoying tendencies are indescribable and I hope someone hits you in the face with a mallet so you can realise that she wasn't the only one and yes you probably fucked it up, yes its your fault, stop whinging about it and go to strip club.

fuck.

3 posts in one night, what of it.

I don't even know why but I lost my shit when I saw this picture, I chortled (YES, CHORTLED, HOW GOOD IS THAT WORD?!) to myself/the computer screen for a good five minutes when I first saw it.

and again when I looked at it after taking a break.

(this isn't actually the photo I was talking about, I've misplaced it...it's probably on my laptop... but this is just as funny. To me, anyway. )

Don't ask why, just go with it.

I don't even care if you don't care.
I'm posting pictures of my loves. After all. This is my fucking blog.


Michael Fassbender. <3


James McAvoy. <3


They so darn sexeh.

:)

It's the little things in life you've got to look forward to.

Some more things I have noticed.

1. I frequently underestimate myself.

This is mainly referring to the exam marks I've received.
A+ for Art.
A for Media.
B+ for English.
B+ for Biology

and that's it so far.
But like. Wow. I only studied for one exam, and I haven't even got that mark back yet... I've surprised myself at how much I know. Either that or how developed my bullshitting skills are..

2. When someone doesn't accept, they judge.

As is blatantly obvious to all that know me, I've developed a rather ridiculous obsession for X-Men: First Class/James McAvoy/Michael Fassbender.
Let me first say: when I mention them and you give me a " -_- " expression, be it through technology or in real life, it hurts. You have your idiosyncrasies, your own passions, your own little hobbies and obsessions, why be so judgmental of mine?
Just because I express my love for these guys slightly differently than you would (that wasn't meant to sound kinky, I swear), doesn't mean you automatically have to roll your eyes at me.
JUST. LEAVE ME ALONE.
I'M SO SICK OF JUDGMENTAL PEOPLE.

LET ME BE MY FUCKING SELF AND STOP GIVING ME THAT LOOK.


I'm well pissed right now.
I think this is a perfect opportunity to sing/write.
I haven't written in ages.

so..
3. I haven't written a story or read a book in ages.

I miss doing that. So so much.
I miss having the time to do things, having the energy. I miss playing my bass. I miss writing random fan-fics for crappy websites and fanatics like me.

I miss too many things; I frequently dwell on the past and find it hard to move on/let go in a lot of ways.

Finishing off this blog in a contradictory manner to how it started... I disappoint myself sometimes too.

I can be better than this, I know it...

<3 effy.

:D

EXAMS ARE OVER

PRAISE THE DANG LORD.

Things that I have noticed.

I've decided to start a.. segment, if you will, called "things that I have noticed".
Much as the title says, it will be about "things I have noticed". (I hope I haven't lost anyone yet).

TWO MAIN THINGS I HAVE NOTICED RECENTLY.

1. Everyone is obsessed with Adele now, after "Rolling In The Deep" came out. She became mainstream, and now all that I can see on facebook are her lyrics (usually misquoted or wrong entirely) posted by teeny boppers and dweebs.
It pisses me off. None of them even knew she existed. I knew she existed before Rolling In The Deep and Someone Like You. Two months ago, if I had have sung "Rolling In The Deep" at school, no one would have known what the fuck I was on about. But now. EVERYONE. Knows it. I know it's good for her career and I'm not saying it's a bad thing I'm just saying that I'm annoyed at how easily people 'follow the flock' and don't bother finding things out for themselves until it's the new craze.

P.S. Stop posting her lyrics on facebook. You're all pissing me off now.

2. Everyone seemed to have a Tamagotchi/Pokemon game/cards as a child.
I had none of those things..
Not once have I owned a Tamagotchi or have ever wanted to own one. I only know of Piccachu and Squirtle in Pokemon, and I don't even know what the fuck they do.
Do not ridicule me for not having these iconic things in my childhood.
I was too busy playing with Beanie Kids and Bratz dolls.



I wish the world would just leave me be.

I get six days of sleep ins, starting tomorrow.

I'M SO EXCITEDDDD (I just can't hide it)

I love sleeping in more than the air that I breathe.
Although I always get headaches when I sleep in so... well.. maybe it's a sign that I'm sleeping in too late.

Anyway.
Just thought I'd post a blog to ridicule the fact that Queen Jaj (I feel 12 referring to someone that isn't a queen, as queen, but for her sake I'll sink that low) called me her Kingdom Prostitute.
Not entirely sure what it entails.

I'd like to point out that in comparison to J.L's blog and L.T's blog, mine seems rather inferior.
Mainly due to the language they use (I feel somewhat Elizabethan when reading their things, it's bad because I can rarely concentrate on the current english language let alone that of centuries ago... SEE LIDIJA THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T FOLLOW YOUR BLOG, I DON'T HAVE THE MENTAL CAPACITY FOR HALF THE POSTS).
Well aware this is making me sound stupid.

I'm actually quite intellectual.
I once read a book, you know.

It was interesting! Although there's only so much you can learn from a comic..

(In case you hadn't noticed the blatant sarcasm...I'm being sarcastic..)



THE EXAMS.
Okay, had the art first.

Now, I've never been shot before... (except with a nerf bullet) and.. after leaving that exam I can safely say I've experienced a situation highly similar to that felt when being shot.

And the media was even worse.
I've never done such extensive/intense writing in my life.

My body and brain physically ache from the work I put into the exams I've done so far.

IT'S JUST NOT NATURAL.
My body isn't used to any type of exertion, be it mental or physical.
That much is now clear.


But, only the english exam to bullshit my way through on Friday, then Psychology on monday which I'm hoping to ace.

(I've not said 'ace' in years and I've said it two times tonight... this three-day headache is really starting to get to me)

ANOTHER POINTLESS BLOG LOL
I just do it to keep up with Lidija
and to make myself feel like I have some sort of self purpose.

KBYE, going to go and watch new Simpsons (which i've missed dearly)
AND THEN ...


X-MEN: FIRST CLASS!!!!!!


Again. Don't make fun of my obsessions.

They'll pass..

And the award goes to...

ME!
Procrastinator of the year.

I had two exams today; Health and Biology.
I won't lie, the 10 minutes reading time I got for health only furthered my confusion and made my heart sink to my shoes...and when it came to actually writing the thing.. HA! Ohhh such bullshit hasn't flowed out of my pen in years...also, because I write like a retard, the whole right side of my torso + arm + hand cramped up like a whore and I had to keep taking breaks...I mean who takes breaks whilst writing? I even get puffed when I eat too quickly..

BIOLOGY. Oh my god I was worried to death for it, and I, along with everyone else, finished the entire exam within half an hour of getting it. Not sure whether thats a good sign or a bad sign.. Either my bullshitting skills were on fire or I was blessed with the divine knowledge I'd asked for this morning. I mean... it had to be either of the two because I didn't study.
At all.
Like. A five minute skim over six chapters of the textbook two minutes before the exam was all I did...

AM I A BOSS OR?!

Tomorrow I have Art and Media exams.
I don't think I'll be blessed with divine knowledge for art...
I have a feeling we're going to all walk out of the exam with the similar feeling of having been shot in the face. Art theory.. art history.. differentiating between art periods... FACK AWWWF I DON'T EVEN CARE. If I like a painting, it's because it intrigues me. I don't want to analyse the aesthetics of the piece, and I'm sure, were the artist who painted it still alive, they wouldn't want me to either. Especially since my aesthetic analyses' are usually quite boring.
MEDIA however. well.
Look I don't know how well that'll go down but I'll probably be too distracted thinking about the movies tomorrow night; I'm seeing X-Men: First Class with my sister.
I've already seen it once but.
I've grown an immense love for it, as well as James Mcavoy (although I always loved him), Lucas Till (I'm ignoring the fact that he was in the Hannah Montana movie because he redeemed himself by playing Havok), and Michael Fassbender, whom interests me because of his accent. He's irish, yet can play a convincing american, englishman and he speaks fluent german.
I MEAN HOW TALENTED DO YOU WANT TO BE? James Mcavoy also has that talent, although I don't think he can speak german...


I'm getting distracted and this blog is REEEALLY long and probably quite boring..
I think I'll indulge in a litte happiness and post a picture of each of the aforementioned celebrities, because I'm obsessed.

James Mcavoy. <3




Michael Fassbender <3




Lucas Till <3




On the topic of obsessions...
I think I've discovered why I've had so many of them over the years.
McFly, Short Stack, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Scarlett Johansson, Karen Gillan, Iron Man, and now X-Men First Class...

It's because obsessions keep me occupied. They make me happy. I can have an insurmountable amount of love for celebrities because, okay well they can't return it but it's not like they can reject it either, true?
I turn to obsessions when I'm faced with heartbreak.
Because it's easier to cheer myself up with someone who won't hurt me, than to mull over situations that I probably hadn't much of a hand in anyway.
I hate it when my sister ridicules me of my obsessions, but as I said.. they're beneficial for me in a way. They're like a hobby. It gives me something to focus on.

This blog is so long.
I apologise profusely....


Anyways. Good luck with exams and stuff guys, not long til holidays now.
I'll be sure to rant soon enough, again :)

<3 effy.

In realisation my last post had no coherency whatsoever and I'm sorry for any confusion it caused, with it's alternate tangents and unnecessary rants.


Here's a picture of a giant mole rat.


I'm naming him Horaldo.
LOOK HOW HIGH UP ON HIS HEAD HIS EYES ARE, EEEE!

So I feel some sort of moral obligation to touch base and write a blog.
It's not like anyone reads it anyway so I could say what I wanted, really.

There's been a lot happening in my life. Rumours, crushes, stress, dizzy spells, school work, it's all so much fun..
I don't even know what to say.
I have so much and so little to say at the same time.

I pricked myself with a safety pin accidentally on saturday, and now there's a lump under my skin on my thumb and it's incredibly sore so I'm hoping that doesn't turn out to be anything too severe...
if I die from tetanus (the spelling doesn't look right..) you'll know why!

Exams start in a couple of weeks. Not keen for any of them really. I got a result from a HHD sac back today, needless to say I shouldn't have written Simpsons quotes on every page.. granted, my teacher did think it was amusing but he said it could lower my mark in an exam. How stupid does he think I am? I wouldn't do that in an exam! Only in a sac that I was clueless about. Ended up getting a B+ on that anyway, pretty chuffed considering I didn't study!

Everyone is either breaking up or getting together these days.
No one seems to know how they really feel. Hearts are being broken and it's fucking painful to watch. Everyone's either a cheat or a dick.
It's ridiculous.

I get angry so easily these days. Literally, miniscule things frustrate me.
People frustrate me.
Humanity frustrates me.


I'm just such an angry person.

Media is the best subject.




That is all.

I HATE ANXIETY.

IT HAS RUINED MY LIFE.

THE END.

Sweet Dreams are made of this.

The day before yesterday I saw Sucker Punch with my two best mates A & R.
Despite the movie being kind of confusing and having a similar ends-where-it-started theme like Inception, it was great.
Lots of guns, explosions, creepy monsters, dragons, and hot girls in skimpy outfits!
The main character (I think) was played by Emily Browning,
who was born and bred in Australia!
How cool is that 8)
Not to mention the fact that she's hot and she was also in Lemony Snickets Series Of Unfortunate Events.. or something.

She also sang a couple of songs on the soundtrack. So not only can she pull off an american accent but she can also sing beautifully!
Listen to thisssss! <3


so anyway this blog was basically just about emily browning and sucker punch

I recommend that you go see it, I really liked it! :)

<3 effy.

a revelation.

I actually, truly, genuinely detest using the emoticon " :P "
I hate it.
It sickens me.
It makes me feel like I'm 13.

I'll type it in a text and I genuinely feel as if my maturity has dipped.

I don't even know why I'm making a blog out of this.

But. It pisses me off so I suppose, if you're going to use it with me, be warned. If I don't like you it'll make things worse.

:3 is a far cuter face, don't you think?
and it looks just as cheeky! hehehe


also

only three days left.
3 FUCKIN' DAYS, MAN.

and tomorrow, I'm not even going to classes because I've become the assistant stage manager for the Performing Arts Captains Concert.
SHIT YEAH, MAN. I'M SO FUCKIN' PUMPED TO MISS OUT ON BIO! MUWAHAHAH!
I'VE MANAGED TO SUCCESSFULLY AVOID IT FOR NEARLY 2 WEEKS.


gonna fail, though.
i've missed a sac, that everyone did last week. still haven't seen her about it. don't even care.
don't want to do it. don't need to do it. want to drop bio.
suggestions of a subject I can pick up?
:/




THIS IS ALL SO IRRELEVANT. I'm massively hyper this arvo. I SCARED CHILDREN AT MUSICAL REHEARSAL, YYYYYEEEEEEEEEEAAAAH.


meow.

BUY ME BONESTORM OR GO TO HELL.

I think my life revolves around the Simpsons/Simpsons quotes.

anyway.

that was all leading up to me wanting this kitten.



maybe I should call the cat bonestorm!
then the quote would work on two levels!


how cute is it?


this blog is irrelevant and pretty boring.

BUT THE KITTEN.

<3

I've felt shit for a week at least now

and he lightened my mood.
Exponentially.


I'm happy.

This is a weird feeling.

.

I've reached 10,001 questions on formspring.

COME AT ME, BRO.

Is it just me? or...

Is it just me or is everyone going through stages where it's like
one night: a little bit of homework
next night: none
next night: IMMEASURABLE AMOUNT OF HOMEWORK THAT'S ALL DUE TOMORROW AND CAN'T BE LEFT UNDONE
night after that: none.

like.

its draining me guys! I mean I know I'm clearly shit at prioritising my time but OATH.

Okay.

I'm yet AGAIN failing hard at writing blogs. I would say that I've been busy, which I suppose wouldn't completely be lying but then again I've spent hours sitting on facebook on my phone so I have no excuse for not writing anything here!
Except I suppose for complete inspirational stagnation.
So i've started year 11.
I probably already wrote a blog about this but WHATEVERRRR.
My subjects are pretty good; life without maths is heaven. However, Biology seems to be draining my nutsack nearly as much as maths would so no need to get overly excited right now.
Absolutely looving Psychology; I'm remembering things. Important psychology related things! Which is good considering I have a pretty crappy memory. Except for song lyrics...
anyway idk where i'm going with this...

I have my musical audition tomorrow. I'm nervous alreadyyyyy I hate singing in front of people ON MY OWN. ON A STAGE. IN A FUCKING AUDITORIUM. WITH NO MIC. AND NO WORDS.
fml.

but whatever.
I like singing so I suppose that cancels out all of the aforementioned worries.
Well I say that now but that doesn't make the butterflies go away.

I hope everyone's enjoying their weeks...only three days left :D
oh, and congratulations to my sister on getting her P's! :D
heaps proud of her for that.
<3

I like you.

FUCK.

Pet peeves.

I've decided I'll write a pet peeve daily until I go back to school, just to keep this blog alive! I'll post additional stuff when I think of it.

1. The saying, 'pet peeves'. I MEAN WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT EVEN MEEEAN? What do PETS have to do with peeves? I think I'll call it rage of the day instead.

New year, new layout, new header.

You like? I made the header myself C:

I'm hoping to write an awesome blog sometime soon.
But for now, I'm just saying,
hope you're all well :)

2011

Here I go, falling into conformity and writing about the new year.
I brought the new year in with my best friend. We've decided to make it a tradition, hopefully each new years will be better than it's predecessor.
We sat across the bay from the city and watched the fireworks as the clock struck midnight. It was beautiful! However the old hag coughing up her lungs behind us was far from that...I was hoping she might choke on her phlegm and stop ruining the moment but no such luck.
I even had the best sleep after that. We'd been to the beach before we went to the city so it was nice to collapse into bed. Woke up to a cat sitting on my feet. It may've been the cutest way to begin 2011! :)

I'm not expecting drastic changes this year, it's not up to the year to change things. It's up to me.
So I think I'll get some more piercings, maybe a tattoo, and when my sister reaches her goal weight we'll get our bellybuttons pierced :)

I hope it's a good year though, it's got a lot to live up to after last year.

<3 effy.