"I will not be what fear makes me"

It's easier said than done..

I'm so sick of anxiety! Six fucking years. "It'll get better, you just need to learn how to control it"

GUESS WHAT, THAT DOESN'T ALWAYS WORK.

go fuck yourself.

PRIMUS.

If you like bass, if you like random guitar, check these guys out.
Like seriously, I'm so glad my mate told me about them.
The bass player makes the bass his bitchhhhh.

What you say is way too complicated.

Guys, my pile of holiday homework isn't getting any smaller.

Maybe if I stop looking it'll go away.

I believe you liar.

Yesterday I woke up, planning on doing nothing on the first day of my holidays.
Last night I was informed of a $10 concert that was happening in Northcote today.

Today I woke up, got dressed, went to the city, avoided some vomit that was (ironically) outside McDonalds, bought a top, another mug from typo (I'm starting a collection), caught a tram with my cousin & sister to Northcote, was slightly creeped out by an old man with a conk the size of an elephants, and SAW (the astoundingly amazing) WASHINGTON.
aka Megan Washington, aka indie amazingness, aka girlfriend of Michael Tomlinson (Yves Klein Blue, we have evidence that they're dating, we saw them kiss across the street!).
The venue was small, the boppers were many, there were even a few oldies there. But nonetheless, she sounded absolutely amaaaazing.
To be honest, when they introduced her and she started speaking I thought she might've been a midget because I couldn't see her. Took myself and my sister a while to realize she was sitting down at the (very low) piano.
She sang, swore, cracked jokes and drank coffee. Then, scarpered from the venue, as did we.
We were waiting out the front for the tram, and, low and behold, out of the front door (which we'd just come through) came Megan Washington! Complete with indie doc martin look-a-like boots, and a big coat. Her roadies suck though, they dropped her piano and she looked as if she were going to cry.
Some of my cousins' friends asked if they could have a photo but she said she had to rush off to Geelong, so she didn't have the time.
But, as we were waiting for the tram, she had time to cross the road, greet Michael, and talk to him for a few minutes before kissing him. My sister was a little shattered, she's in love with Mr Tomlinson (good choice hey, he's a looker!) but, because they're both so amazingly indie and beautiful in general, we let it slide.
Then I went back to my nan's house, ate some random pasta and now I'm home.

What a day hey.
Megan Washington <3

effy.

I never know what to post anymore.
I'm in a bad mood today.

Firstly, because I'm liking a guy who hurt me.
Secondly, seeing him around the school a lot hurts.
Thirdly, I don't think he wants to see me, I know I'm annoying.
Fourthly, he won't be at my school much longer anyway.

This fucking sucks.

star light, star bright.

The moon is kissing venus tonight :)
and I (tried) to take a decent photo of it, as it looks amazing.
I also took a few through my dad's binoculars, which was a smart idea except it was difficult to keep the camera/binoculars still. So in retrospect it probably wasn't such a good idea.

And this was the best one out of them all, when seen in full you can almost see the crators on the moon :) and in my dad's binoculars, they're so powerful you can practically see Neil Armstrong's footprints.


On another note, until this evening I have never feared for my life whilst in the car with my mother.
We had to drop her back in Bundoora at the hospital, and Dad thought it'd be nice to let her drive.
Fuck oath, big mistake! Before we'd even made it to the first roundabout we'd nearly hit every parked car, innocent bystander and unlucky kitty cat there was to be found!
We spent a majority of the journey 20km over the speed limit, AND we tailgated some poor bastard in a white holden for over a third of the freeway.
Once we'd dropped her off, dad said "I think there's a dint in the floor on the front passenger side where I dug my foot in hoping there'd be a brake."
Mum, I thought you were better. After all, you're only in there for another week or so.
But if you're driving like that, you won't live past christmas.

No more cars for you..

Are you catching my drift yet?

I've recently noticed that my brain and my body work by themselves.
Okay that sounds stupid... let me reword it.

My brain says DO THIS! My body says FUCK THAT, IMA DO THIS! /runs off into field, skipping through daisies.

Can be quite annoying when you unknowingly do something you weren't planning on doing.

For instance as I was walking towards the steps, I planned on taking them one at a time. I took a double-take when I skipped the first three steps unknowingly. Yeah so that isn't that shocking...
I don't think I've ever done something that unknowing. Apart from telling my english teacher to get fucked, except he's a legend and he took it with his stride and laughed.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting this.
Just. Felt the need to tell you guys that my subconscious is bursting through into my conscious life. *inception theme* eheheh.

I could totally go watch that again, I loved it so much.

Also I've spent so long in the car today D:
Had to drive to bundoora to pick up mum, drive home. Leave again an hour later to drive to werribee, drive home. Then tonight we have to drive mum BACK to bundoora. Then drive back.

If I have to spend any more time in the car I want it to be in the friggen drivers seat!

Oh babbyyyyyyy

I'm so in love, its not even funny.
(not the twat on the bottom left, clearly the cutie with his tongue out!)
Pretty much spend all my time thinking of him...
yeah, its sad. But it's not causing any heartbreak, unlike all the other crushes I've had.
Personal ones anyway.

There's always either loads of guys or none at all.
I want a happy medium, where only one wants me, and he's nice and kind and good looking. I'm sick of having guys who just want to roooot.
Like, seriously. Fuck 'em.
I want a sensitive guy. Someone like joseph gordon-levitt.
He's shexxehhhhh.

But. Really....I had a point for this blog but. I've. Forgotten what the hell I was going to write.
I got distracted by Joseph. and. my family.
Mum's home for a bit, then back off to le hospital.
Hmmm.



.... :)

You and me could write a bad romance..

Yeah look, as much as I hate that song and Lady GayGay in general, I looooove this man.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6zMwGkY7z4

if it weren't already blatantly obvious ;)

this blog is just gonna be a quick recap on the last week!

monday: chills
tuesday: chills, finished art (clay) got to bludge and hit clay with rolling pin.
wednesday: suspended. that's right, me. suspended. I've never even so much as had a detention in my life, then all of a sudden I get caught up for an ear I pierced "at school and DANGEROUSLY" over a term ago.
Yeah Aitken, I'm so friggen dangerous.

T_T
so that put a massive turd in the middle of my week! Although I got to sleep in, drink red bull and eat lots of zappos before firing up with 'wings' and a shitload of a sugar rush, so I walked to A & R's place. Convinced A into thinking that i'd been expelled and kicked out of my house; nearly convinced him :)

we played darts until like, 7. In the dark, outside.

Shit, I love my best friends.
Anyways, at the moment I'm just waiting for the video above to load, its worth it.
He's the cutest thing :)
then I shall return to my room, sip some wine (not even joking, Orange Muscat and Flora, its amazing), read a book before retiring for the evening!

Visiting mum tomorrow, she's coming home for the day.. should be. Interesting. Lord knows she'll probably be solely disappointed when she comes home to find the washing pile higher than what it was when she left.

uhm.

yeah.
Enjoy your weekend guys, one more week til the holidays :) then more interesting blogs from me ahah :)

effy <3

(I was hoping to put some random, sexy picture of Joseph Gordon-Levitt in this post, but the internet is shitting itself and I'm already having enough trouble just posting this friggen thing as it is..)

How come it takes some people so damn long?

WHO GAVE ME THIS COLD?!
ANGRY FACE!
FACE PALM!
BOOK-THROWN-AT-YOUR-FACE.

Massive rage sesh guys.
Also, I'm really starting to miss iTunes.
Like, its actually painful not having all of my music on access.
I mean it's on my iTouch but I can't add any new stuff, it's terrible :(

I need to write a more meaningful blog, I've written some stuff in an exercise book late at night (your brain thinks at its best at that time!) so maybe I'll post some of that :)

for the mean time ima let my brain dribble out of my nose.

<3 effy.

Well hot diggidy.

Having no computer for three odd weeks was hell.

Finding out that the corrupted files were in YOUR account was marginally amusing.

Receiving the computer back, 'fixed', but missing 50% + of your music/other downloads was depressing.

Fuck it.
I want a laptop.